Felicity

I've been watching old episodes of Felicity on one of the chick cable channels recently.

[WE, actually, but don't tell my former co-workers at Lifetime that I've been contributing to the competition.]

I always been attracted to the show... something about the character has always drawn me in. Maybe it's her hair - she has hair just like mine (but she's got a better stylist on set), and I've conviced myself I might (in my own little delusional world) look a little bit like her. But it's more than that. Something about the character's personality... her complete inability to be cool or say the right thing... or salvage herself from any and every embarassing situation. She's smart and articulate, but she still seems to manage to fuck up all the time. The way she reacts to situations in her life seem to be the exact same way I would react... even as I cringe to watch. Maybe that's why I cringe. She wears her heart on her sleeve and everything is an excuse to overanalyze and overemote to an exhausting degree. She's an idealist and an romantic and wants it all, even though she doesn't necessarily know what 'it all' is. Part of me HATES that I'm like her. She's fictional... and she's kind of pathetic. There's this one line from this one episode that, for some reason, has stuck with me since it first aired when I was in college. Sean says to Ben (about Felicity), "She's the kind of girl you marry, not the kind of girl you date." The first time I heard it, I thought they were talking about me, not some curly-haired fictional college student.

In the end, Felicity went off to medical school, married Ben, and lived happily ever after. She always stayed true to herself and was all about not compromising her beliefs. Leave it to J.J. Abrams. Maybe if I ask nicely, he'll write my script too.

But her hair is really JUST like mine. And I really loved the episode where she cut it all off.